seasonsrpg | semi-open 💐 I had to fall to lose it all

{ he nods at that. }

I think after what we just heard, both of us may need a little time to process it. I... can explain while we drink, if you're interested. And I can always ensure to spend the next few days with him to make up for it. At the moment, after that talk, I'd like to spend time with you if possible. { he takes a deep breath } It's probably strange to hear, but I imagine just like Thoma and Alhaitham want to keep checking we're both here, I have... the same feeling.

I'll just need to let him know, but I could meet you there if you'd prefer not to wait?

... [ hm. ] I am curious. [ kaveh nods, giving ayato a small smile. ] I, yes, I know what you... mean. [ although perhaps ayato feels that more strongly since he had to watch him die, something that kaveh still feels incredibly guilty about. if he could have, then perhaps he should have tried to convince the monster to follow him elsewhere temporarily... or at least moved into another room... ]

[ he shakes his head of those thoughts. ] I do want to spend some time with you too. Ah, that might be better, honestly. [ he wants to go home right now, and he'll just stand here buzzing if he's got to wait. ] I'll meet you back at our apartment. It gives me time to get things ready. I'll... I'll see you then.

{ he gives a nod in response to that. and he won't linger on that topic more, he's said why, not to make kaveh feel guilty but to understand that this is important to him as well at the moment--thoma will likely understand that. }

We can discuss it shortly then. { and at least with that, he gives the other a small smile. } I'll see you at the apartment shortly.

[ he knows that he hadn't said it to make him feel guilty. kaveh just can't help let everything get to him right now. ]

[ he nods and heads off with alhaitham, going back to their apartment. he doesn't do much besides pick out the wine and set a few glasses on the living room table, taking his sketch pad out and attempting to draw... something. he's unsuccessful, but he doesn't want to sit and do nothing until ayato arrives. ]

{ really he doesn't take too long to make his way to kaveh and alhaitham's apartment. most of the time is spent reassuring thoma he'll keep in touch, and that he'll likely only be gone a couple of hours.

a little of the time is calling at a shop that sells alcohol to get a few items as a means of thank you for inviting him over--trying to have manners despite likely really not needing it at the moment.

besides, he's still very fond of sake and he knows somewhere in sunwaning that sells decent bottles of it. he'll knock once he's there though, bag in his hand as he waits for the door to be answered. }

[ kaveh answers the door a few moments later, ] Come on in, Ayato. [ he steps aside and motions for him to make his way in. ] I thought we'd be more comfortable in the living room. [ he closes the door once his friend is inside, the octocat hiding beneath the table and trying to gank the inkwell that kaveh had been using to sketch. as soon as he sees ayato he bolts... at least for now. ]

I'm sure you remember Naji. [ he takes a seat on the couch, closing his sketchbook and moving the inkwell and quill aside, so he can move the bottle of wine front and center to be uncorked. ]

{ he steps inside, toeing his shoes off on the way and nudging them out of the way. he'll hold up the bag he brought after. }

Thank you. I thought since the bottle may only get us so far, I would bring more just in case. Granted, this is much stronger, so I would hope we don't try and finish this today.

{ he'll follow the other through, surprised by the way the octocat rushes off at the sight of him this time. }

How could I forget? I didn't ask before, but I assume that it's a pet you acquired here?

...ah!, thank you, Ayato. Always thinking ahead. [ he smiles and kneels in front of the table on one of the pillows that he set around it. he thought he might try making it more comfortable for ayato this time around, since he had mentioned a tradition from back home on the airship... and that's kind of the only thing he wants to remember from the trip. ] I mean, you might not want to finish it, but... I do...

He's a pet that followed us home after a quest.

{ he blinks as he looks at the table and how kaveh set it up, a small warm smile on his face that only shows a smidgen of how much that means to him. he doesn't expect anyone to try their customs for their sake, so it means a lot he does. }

Wine is much weaker than this, Kaveh. I don't want to have to explain to Alhaitham why you can't get up off the floor or if you are sick everywhere.

From the ship?

Ayato. [ he pours them both some wine. ] Ayato. [ as if saying his name a second time is going to be enough to convince him. ] It'll be fine. I'll be fine. [ a smile to match his confidence as he slides a glass across the table to his friend. ] Let's start with the wine and then we can move to this 'stronger stuff'. I can hold my liquor pretty well. [ no he fucken can't, lol. ]

Y- Yes, actually. Did you go to it too? We, er, Mehrak managed to find some treasure there while Alhaitham and I were busy dealing with the Octocat problem... and when we finally tried to leave this little guy followed us. We had scared his family off, so I think that's why he tried to tail us, so I stuck around and tried to see if they'd come back... but they didn't. Eventually I gave up and... now he's ours.

{ the second time of calling his name does not convince him, kaveh. you are, after all, a lightweight. }

We can see how it goes, certainly. But if you don't mind, I'll handle pouring out the sake.

I was there briefly, but neither myself nor the person I was with tried very hard. { ayato sighs } I am not much of a cat person.

... [ hm. it doesn't seem like he's going to be able to convince him... now. he'll take the loss. ] Alright, fine.

No? Did you go and then... leave? It was infested with them, but we managed to clear them out pretty... easily. [ "easily". ] Except for this little one. [ and the octocat has come back, but only to try to snatch another something off the table. what? it doesn't seem to matter, it just wants to cause some mischief. ] A dog person?

{ not until he's drunk as well--and that's a difficult hurdle to cross. }

Exactly. The two of that went looked at it, attempted to go around them and left when it appeared we'd be disturbing their home. I think my companion at the time was worried their brother would have wanted him to bring some back.

And yes, I have no shame in saying that. Dogs are loyal and follow orders, there's much more to be appreciative of.

Makes sense, but it might have been for the best that you didn’t get too close… the kittens aren’t dangerous, mischievousness aside, but the adults are capable of secreting something that affects how a person acts… Alhaitham nearly went mad that day.

…heh. [ a knowing smirk as he sips his wine. ] Needy too. And a little too eager to please. [ is he still talking about dogs? ]

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That sounds rather unusual... Considering this seemed like it was a while ago, I assume the effects wore off on their own?

{ he will quietly swirl the liquid in his glass, appreciating the scent of it first. } There's nothing wrong with that.

{ it works either way tbh... he won't deny it either way. }

...mm, that day. It took a bit. He's obviously fine now. It had come as a surprise, is all, because once again we're in the middle of a quest and the proverbial shit hits the fan. [ he sets his hand down and wiggles his fingers at the cat who comes over and attaches himself to kaveh's arm. he flinches, but brings him into his lap to pet his head. ]

But I don't think I'm going to go on any quests for a while. [ he takes another few sips of wine. ] I'm not really sure I want to do much of... anything. I'm... I don't know... I feel lost. [ he finishes off the glass and sets it down. ] Confused, too.

That does seem-- { he almost says a regular occurrence, but catches himself and changes it mid-sentence. } --to be difficult to deal with. At least you seem to have gained a friend from it.

Though, I can understand that. { perhaps ayato has had more close encounters with death, already had times where a sword or dagger has come too close to his throat. poison has found its way into his food.

he doesn't feel as lost or that he doesn't want to do anything, but. he can't bring himself to voice any of that. not when he has no idea of what kaveh's history is. }

Is there anything you think would help? { a pause } Other than the alcohol.

...mm. [ if kaveh thinks about it he's had a few brushes with death while on the quests here. a couple close encounters could have landed him six feet under ground, but he managed to evade knocking on death's door one way or anything. he couldn't do that forever, but... he'd rather not think about it. it's already been hard enough to try to move on. ]

[ he snorts. ] ...alcohol helps because I can disassociate, but [ he looks aside to a notebook. ] I have been trying to draw. It's not really going well though. I'm having a hard time... focusing? I [ he gets up to grab the notebook, passing it to ayato. inside there are a number of normal sketches. some of the house he'd been planning for him and alhaitham. some of a garden. some of alhaitham, himself. and then there are others that look like they had been normal, but they're just scribbled on... almost like he'd suddenly lost control of his hand and begun drawing tens of hundreds of circles suddenly. there are dozens of drawings like that. ]

I'm also trying music. And... I may just try walking or jogging...

{ he'll pick up the notebook as it's handed to him, flipping through the pages. }

Have you tried going to other areas of the city to draw a landscape there? I've found it helps. I... actually had intended to pick up painting again since the last paint and pour, this has helped me take the time to finally do so, but I've found being at home to be rather stifling. I may try and go to other areas of the city to begin with. It may take a few days before I'm ready, but I think it may help. Would you like to join me sometime?

{ his eyes dip to the notebook. } It's only been a day, I doubt either of us feel ready.

...no. [ he moves his hands into his lap and looks down at them. ] I'm sure that would help... but I haven't really wanted to leave the house. [ he admits sheepishly. ] Alhaitham's even taking some time off, which I feel terrible about, but to... help me through this... [ he kind of just wants to glue himself to alhaitham. ] But I know what you mean. I only have so many things to draw here, and they're bound to get stale... [ alhaitham and his chest aside. he'll never get sick of drawing that. ]

I... I'd like that. Maybe going with somebody else would help... and it'd be more incentive not to say I'm going to do it and then... not.

{ really he hasn't ventured further than down the road until this chat with olwen, it hasn't been long enough and ayaka had helped keep things very much to their home too. both travelers came to his house so he didn't have to go out as well. but soon. he definitely wants to try.

and honestly understandable, kaveh. who wouldn't want to draw alhaitham's chest- }

We could try Blossomcrown park? It's relatively green, and not too far if we use a teleporter.

[ kaveh nods as he reaches to take his sketch books back, setting them aside to forget about them for the time being. he'll have to invest in a new one. he's not sure he wants to carry either of his current books around... not when he can catch a glimpse of the mess he's made of them. ] Sure. I think that sounds relatively... safe. And I did enjoy drawing the landscape the last time we were there.

{ new ones sound like a good plan, plus it'd mean he has to go out just to buy them to begin with. }

Yes, the landscape has a lot of flowers that are pleasant to look at as well. And since we haven't had a lot of rain since April, it should be dry.

{ he sips at the wine. }

I can also see if there are any other areas of the city that may be nice to use?

...hm. If you're open to it we could just make a day of it. We could drop by the store to pick up some supplies first, and then wander around looking for inspiration. We could also get something to eat in there too. I'm sure it would be a pleasant day and hopefully productive day.

{ he gives a smile in return to that. }

It sounds like a plan. There's quite a few places to eat around the city, is there anything you'd prefer? In case we need to make a reservation.

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