seasonsrpg | semi-open 💐 I had to fall to lose it all

...mm. [ if kaveh thinks about it he's had a few brushes with death while on the quests here. a couple close encounters could have landed him six feet under ground, but he managed to evade knocking on death's door one way or anything. he couldn't do that forever, but... he'd rather not think about it. it's already been hard enough to try to move on. ]

[ he snorts. ] ...alcohol helps because I can disassociate, but [ he looks aside to a notebook. ] I have been trying to draw. It's not really going well though. I'm having a hard time... focusing? I [ he gets up to grab the notebook, passing it to ayato. inside there are a number of normal sketches. some of the house he'd been planning for him and alhaitham. some of a garden. some of alhaitham, himself. and then there are others that look like they had been normal, but they're just scribbled on... almost like he'd suddenly lost control of his hand and begun drawing tens of hundreds of circles suddenly. there are dozens of drawings like that. ]

I'm also trying music. And... I may just try walking or jogging...

{ he'll pick up the notebook as it's handed to him, flipping through the pages. }

Have you tried going to other areas of the city to draw a landscape there? I've found it helps. I... actually had intended to pick up painting again since the last paint and pour, this has helped me take the time to finally do so, but I've found being at home to be rather stifling. I may try and go to other areas of the city to begin with. It may take a few days before I'm ready, but I think it may help. Would you like to join me sometime?

{ his eyes dip to the notebook. } It's only been a day, I doubt either of us feel ready.

...no. [ he moves his hands into his lap and looks down at them. ] I'm sure that would help... but I haven't really wanted to leave the house. [ he admits sheepishly. ] Alhaitham's even taking some time off, which I feel terrible about, but to... help me through this... [ he kind of just wants to glue himself to alhaitham. ] But I know what you mean. I only have so many things to draw here, and they're bound to get stale... [ alhaitham and his chest aside. he'll never get sick of drawing that. ]

I... I'd like that. Maybe going with somebody else would help... and it'd be more incentive not to say I'm going to do it and then... not.

{ really he hasn't ventured further than down the road until this chat with olwen, it hasn't been long enough and ayaka had helped keep things very much to their home too. both travelers came to his house so he didn't have to go out as well. but soon. he definitely wants to try.

and honestly understandable, kaveh. who wouldn't want to draw alhaitham's chest- }

We could try Blossomcrown park? It's relatively green, and not too far if we use a teleporter.

[ kaveh nods as he reaches to take his sketch books back, setting them aside to forget about them for the time being. he'll have to invest in a new one. he's not sure he wants to carry either of his current books around... not when he can catch a glimpse of the mess he's made of them. ] Sure. I think that sounds relatively... safe. And I did enjoy drawing the landscape the last time we were there.

{ new ones sound like a good plan, plus it'd mean he has to go out just to buy them to begin with. }

Yes, the landscape has a lot of flowers that are pleasant to look at as well. And since we haven't had a lot of rain since April, it should be dry.

{ he sips at the wine. }

I can also see if there are any other areas of the city that may be nice to use?

...hm. If you're open to it we could just make a day of it. We could drop by the store to pick up some supplies first, and then wander around looking for inspiration. We could also get something to eat in there too. I'm sure it would be a pleasant day and hopefully productive day.

{ he gives a smile in return to that. }

It sounds like a plan. There's quite a few places to eat around the city, is there anything you'd prefer? In case we need to make a reservation.

No, I'm not interested in anything in particular. However, I would like to try some of the hole in the wall places around here... not sure what kind of food or desserts they could sell, but it's those small places that are usually diamonds in the rough.

Is that so? In that case, I'll let you take the lead with that. Unfortunately I haven't had many chances to eat in places like that here.

{ or well, he just rarely eats out... tbh... other than odd snacks here and there. }

I did a bar crawl not too long ago... perhaps we can do a snack crawl. Go from place to place sampling all sorts of snacks together.

That does sound nice. Do you mean more like street food?

{ at least he's used to that more than other types. }

Exactly! We have a lot of great street food in Sumeru, but I'm willing to bet there's even more here - what with it being an other wordly melting pot.

There does seem to be a number of them about, though I'm not sure if my conception has been skewed by the arts festival yourself and Ayaka hosted.

I guess we'll find out together... and I know it's a bit early to consider, but I do want to do a winter festival too.

Oh? The last one was popular, I can't say I'm surprised. Will it be the same theme, or something else?

A different theme. But we could add all sorts of fun snow activities. Snowman building contest. Snowball fights. Sledding. Maybe some kind of scavenger hunt.

I wonder if any of our fellow Otherworlder's have holidays in the winter you could use for inspiration as well? I considered asking Inaba for collaborating and making a questionnaire when people arrive so we could look at events for people to feel more at home, I just haven't got around to it yet.

I think that's a great idea! I wouldn't mind incorporating a little bit of everybody's winter holidays. I think that's kind of in line with what we'd like to do anyway... make our own unique holiday here.

That would certainly help people feel they have something to look forward to. I know I enjoyed the last festival you worked on.

{ though some of that was for unsavoury reasons sorry kaveh ksdjng }

Then it's settled. Perhaps at the end of the summer you, me, and your sister can get together and start talking about plans for some kind of Winter Celebration.

[ look, that's okay.
all reasons are good reasons.
even the unsavory ones. ]

{ he'll take another sip of the wine at that, before giving a small smile, glad they found something that could offer a thing to look forward to. }

Of course, I'm sure between us we'll manage to organise something. Which reminds me, { how it reminds him, he won't say, but- } I'd said I would tell you what I discussed after you left, did I not?

...mm, agreed. [ he seems equally pleased, and so he goes to take a sip only to stop. ] Ah, right, yes. I'm curious about what you'd asked him. [ he nods, giving the floor back to ayato. ]

{ his eyes shift down to the wine glass in his hand for a moment, before he looks back at kaveh's face. }

This may seem like a strange question, but do you remember Lumine or Aether as the Traveler who visited Sumeru?

Lumine. [ he thinks he knows where this is going. he and alhaitham both share the same traveler, but there's apparently a parallel universe in which aether is the traveler... so he's going to assume there's some discrepancy between himself, ayaka, and thoma. ]

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