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seasonsrpg2025-12-02 12:45 am
rustyhonesty) wrote in seasonsrpg2025-12-02 12:45 am
[Open Log] But I reached and you were gone
WHO: Jean & Open
WHAT: Processing his feelings through training, work and art
WHEN: December
WHERE: Around Nightwake
WARNINGS: blanket warning for Attack on Titan related matters of titans, death, war and such.
Just a Moment to Grief
[Semi-Closed to CR]
[Start of December brings him bad news, so he's mostly found from home, in Sunwaning. His best friend lft the world, only to be dead back home. While he made a promise that he wouldn't let this break him, he did feel like he did need to take a moment to feel bad. Sad. ... mad at the world for not being able to keep him here.
He had only talked about it with his wife, Mikasa. He didn't really feel like talking about it more than that. It would be like opening himself up for more pain. Making himself vulnerable on purpose.
Of course he wouldn't turn down visitors, but his heart wasn't quite in it to play a good host.
But at least the three dogs (a husky, a samoyed and a pegasus puppy akita inu) were welcoming to anyone and hoping they would help cheer Jean up. Their other pets weren't as active on coming to strangers, but they were around somewhere.]
The Training Montage
A; Dayrise, Grand Coliseum
[It's normal to see Jean training at the coliseum. What's usually something unexpected is the intensity and today that was ranked up to max. It was mostly him venting his emotions through exess use of fire. Punches, kicks, even breathing fire.
He only took a break when he felt like his fuse ran out or someone interrupted him. Whichever would come first.]
B; Random Nightwake Forests
[Another good way to vent his emotions was just to fly with his 3DM gear around the forests. He zoomed past trees with high speed, occasionally making a risky turn or just freeflying without the wires attached to anything. Sure, he was using up a lot of gas, but he had extra magical reloads left to use.]
C; Sunwaning Roofs in the evenings of 3rd - 5th
[Full moon made him restless. These three nights he had his wolf ears and tail, his claws and fangs and he felt the need to move. So he took off in the evening, running across different roofs in the district he lived in. Parkouring as a werewolf seemed to help him give his inner wolf something fun to do.
If he needed a break he would remain on a roof to watch the night sky, a pitiful whine escaping his throat.]
D; Titanic Dome
[What's training without new skills? Late in November, Jean bought the Potion of the Dragon Lord. It was about time he took it.
Once he did the first transformation came to him without needing to concentrate. It felt weird. Nothing like the animal transformations so far, but not too unpleasant at least. It was a slow progress, considering how big the change was.
The best way to describe the form was that it was pretty long. It wasn't an eastern style dragon, but long was still a good way to describe it, even if most of the length came from his tail. The color of his dragon was close to ocean green and he had pretty standard horns and wings.
Good thing he chose the Titanic Dome for the test run. He could fit here pretty well. Now he just had to figure out how to move in this form...]
Careful down there. I don't know how to move my body yet.
[His voice was strangely loud, but recognizable.]
Workaholic
[If Jean wasn't training, it was likely he was working. One of the places was in Sunwaning, in Volcanus. There he mostly on weapons he would enchant later when he was feeling better, leaving anything more complicated to when he had the mind to think about them.
If it wasn't forge work, he was likely in Frostreign, in Odyssey, filing out paperwork, planning expeditions or making notes on maps. Even cleaning the headquarters while trying to do so when two owlcats were trying to get his attention.
Or he could be in the Amberfall Library, reading something about something related to work or training.]
Art Theraphy
[Eventually worst of his feelings calm down. He can start honoring the promise he made Marco. The promise of not let this destroy him or anything he's achieved.
This is the moment he takes his sketchbook with him and sits in any of the scenic spots in Nightwake: The Blossomcrow Park, the zen gardens in Sunwaning, the fountains in Dayrise, the lake in Solarpeak, the snowy forests of Frostreign. Any of the districts could hold a spot he wanted to draw.
It was peaceful. And perhaps for the first time in a while, he was able to smile all by himself.]
WHAT: Processing his feelings through training, work and art
WHEN: December
WHERE: Around Nightwake
WARNINGS: blanket warning for Attack on Titan related matters of titans, death, war and such.
Just a Moment to Grief
[Semi-Closed to CR]
[Start of December brings him bad news, so he's mostly found from home, in Sunwaning. His best friend lft the world, only to be dead back home. While he made a promise that he wouldn't let this break him, he did feel like he did need to take a moment to feel bad. Sad. ... mad at the world for not being able to keep him here.
He had only talked about it with his wife, Mikasa. He didn't really feel like talking about it more than that. It would be like opening himself up for more pain. Making himself vulnerable on purpose.
Of course he wouldn't turn down visitors, but his heart wasn't quite in it to play a good host.
But at least the three dogs (a husky, a samoyed and a pegasus puppy akita inu) were welcoming to anyone and hoping they would help cheer Jean up. Their other pets weren't as active on coming to strangers, but they were around somewhere.]
The Training Montage
A; Dayrise, Grand Coliseum
[It's normal to see Jean training at the coliseum. What's usually something unexpected is the intensity and today that was ranked up to max. It was mostly him venting his emotions through exess use of fire. Punches, kicks, even breathing fire.
He only took a break when he felt like his fuse ran out or someone interrupted him. Whichever would come first.]
B; Random Nightwake Forests
[Another good way to vent his emotions was just to fly with his 3DM gear around the forests. He zoomed past trees with high speed, occasionally making a risky turn or just freeflying without the wires attached to anything. Sure, he was using up a lot of gas, but he had extra magical reloads left to use.]
C; Sunwaning Roofs in the evenings of 3rd - 5th
[Full moon made him restless. These three nights he had his wolf ears and tail, his claws and fangs and he felt the need to move. So he took off in the evening, running across different roofs in the district he lived in. Parkouring as a werewolf seemed to help him give his inner wolf something fun to do.
If he needed a break he would remain on a roof to watch the night sky, a pitiful whine escaping his throat.]
D; Titanic Dome
[What's training without new skills? Late in November, Jean bought the Potion of the Dragon Lord. It was about time he took it.
Once he did the first transformation came to him without needing to concentrate. It felt weird. Nothing like the animal transformations so far, but not too unpleasant at least. It was a slow progress, considering how big the change was.
The best way to describe the form was that it was pretty long. It wasn't an eastern style dragon, but long was still a good way to describe it, even if most of the length came from his tail. The color of his dragon was close to ocean green and he had pretty standard horns and wings.
Good thing he chose the Titanic Dome for the test run. He could fit here pretty well. Now he just had to figure out how to move in this form...]
Careful down there. I don't know how to move my body yet.
[His voice was strangely loud, but recognizable.]
Workaholic
[If Jean wasn't training, it was likely he was working. One of the places was in Sunwaning, in Volcanus. There he mostly on weapons he would enchant later when he was feeling better, leaving anything more complicated to when he had the mind to think about them.
If it wasn't forge work, he was likely in Frostreign, in Odyssey, filing out paperwork, planning expeditions or making notes on maps. Even cleaning the headquarters while trying to do so when two owlcats were trying to get his attention.
Or he could be in the Amberfall Library, reading something about something related to work or training.]
Art Theraphy
[Eventually worst of his feelings calm down. He can start honoring the promise he made Marco. The promise of not let this destroy him or anything he's achieved.
This is the moment he takes his sketchbook with him and sits in any of the scenic spots in Nightwake: The Blossomcrow Park, the zen gardens in Sunwaning, the fountains in Dayrise, the lake in Solarpeak, the snowy forests of Frostreign. Any of the districts could hold a spot he wanted to draw.
It was peaceful. And perhaps for the first time in a while, he was able to smile all by himself.]
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[It's at least something to cling onto, whenever things are difficult. The thought of them continuing life somewhere, rather than stopping to exist altogether.]
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[ Not that they're terrible, but at least Levi is hardly sociable in the way Erwin or Hange are, and from what he's seen of Marco, that's true for him too. ]
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That's definitely true. It was Marco who friended me, not the other way around. He wasn't even put off by my attitude, unlike many others.
[To be honest, Jean had been prepared to only make enemies and not friends, to get to the top then and secure a life for himself. He didn't need friends, or so he thought back then.
But he was glad he had them.]
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You really were a handful before the Scouts, huh.
[ He hasn't seen the worst of it. A little bit at the start, but mostly he knew Jean as someone reliable, able to read situations and lead a team when needed from quite early on. Throwing some hands with his fellow squadmates now and then didn't take away from that. ]
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[He looks a bit sheepish.]
I was solely focused on getting into Military Police so I could live an easy and safe life. I had no interest in fighting titans whatsoever. I thought everyone who wanted to join the Survey Corps was an idiot....
[A w k w a r d.]
I clashed with Eren more than anyone else since our motivations and future plans conflicted badly.
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[ Ouch, Levi. ]
Better an idiot than an MP, though.
[ Double ouch. Well, at least Jean has been pretty thoroughly distracted... ]