seasonsrpg | The Double Edge of the Full Moon

WHO: MK, Red Son, Saya, and Monkey King [Closed]
WHAT: Another Weremonkey episode
WHEN: September 29th - September 30th
WHERE: Bloomcrown - Around Red Son's workshop
WARNINGS: Violence, and lots of emotions.

This time there was no late chasing after MK this time. They knew the full moon was coming. MK was on time at the workshop. The went into the containment room and into the nest. It wasn't as lavish as the last one, honestly. Mostly blankets and pillows. The good furs were all in his nest back home, well, at his two homes. He didn't feel like moving them this time. This would only be for two nights and he could deal with this nest until then.

He sat down in the nest and waited. The sun set and the moon came out. MK groaned as his bone popped and his muscles grew. Fur grew over his body as he was changed by the curse all over again. He shook as he rolled around, feeling it coming over him. His mind changed as well and he gave into his instincts. He felt himself become that beast again. He knew his memory would disappear but that's the way it was. He'd figure it out later. He had the scroll. He'd figure it out later.

If only he knew what these next few nights had in store for MK and the others.

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Saya isn't a line between us. And what bigger picture? The picture is you and her getting closer. I don't limit her on anyone else, its just-

Its just you. [And that is]

[The whole host of issues.]

And talked to Mk about what? Saya was waiting a long time for me to figure out my feelings, of course I had to talk to her about them. And MK-

MK doesn't know anything about my feelings.

I didn't know anything of my feelings until I untangled what I felt for Saya and it explained...

Other things.

Yes she was, until she decided she couldn't do it anymore for herself. You saying she couldn't feed from me came with enough other baggage to hurt her. She tried hard not to choose between us but every point we were at odds she felt she had to choose you even if she didn't agree with you. That responsibility made her feel like she was a liar when she told me she valued me equally. What does that sound like to you?

I don't care if it was just me or just MK, or the Jade Emperor. I care that you're not even acknowledging how big of an ask you put her through. When she told me that line that couldn't be crossed, I told her it was unfair to her. That I'd rather we be able to find the boundary ourselves even if it meant she chose you over me. But I also told her that I respected her choice to respect your wishes because she made it clear how much it meant to her even though it really hurt her.

MK doesn't know because you didn't talk to him. And I said you should have approached him about HIS feelings to clear the air. He deserved that much. Instincts don't come from nothing, and being so much older than him, you should have known better.

I'm not saying you shouldn't have chosen Saya, but ignoring MK's feelings hurt him, and that pain hurt Saya so much that she broke down in tears while trying to apologize for hurting him. She wished in that moment she had just stayed in her hibernation.

The bigger picture is you don't respect their feelings. You're still making excuses, still making it out to be less serious than it is. I've let a lot slide, but I'm not letting this.

What in the world makes you think I don't take it seriously? If it was nothing for her to feed from you, I wouldn't have asked for it! I know how much weight is in her feeding from someone, I know how much it means to her, what it does. I could hold back from asking her to not associate with you, be friends with you, but that-

I asked it of her because I know exactly how big of a deal it is!

Maybe you're the one who doesn't respect how much it means to her to think its easy for me to be okay with it! Why do you think that's the line versus everything else?!

And if I told MK my feelings then he'd have to reject me and then he'd still be hurt! [Because of course MK would reject him.]

[Why wouldn't he?]

[But the fact Saya would wish to still hibernate.]

[That]

[He would need to talk to her about that.]

You knowing it and respecting it are two different things Red Son! Because you're still defending yourself. You claimed Saya wasn't a line between us and you're not ACKNOWLEDGING the proof that you DID make her one.

You're a fool if you think of MK that way.

[He stands again finally, just one more point to be made.]

Maybe you should take your own advice. Because you're not worth the compassion of anyone the way things are right now. You're lucky to have so many willing to help you figure yourself out and empathize with your pain.

[He turns and heads for the door.]

Some of us weren't that lucky.

Of course I respect how much I'm asking of her, you're the one acting like you're not a source of loss!

[The words leave his mouth before he can catch them. His mouth snapping shut.]

[Looking away because]

[He's trying to forgive, but getting that association out of his mind is not Easy.]

Yeah, well I've lost way more than you did and I don't dictate what the people I care about do with my worst enemies.

And don't act like you and your family weren't a source of loss just recently. I don't hide that fact by going "Well the world hates us".

You could take a page from your future wife's book. She feels like a monster, but she has true remorse for the pain she caused.

[He opens the door and steps out.]

Sorry for the trouble, Shen Hong. I'll bring you something to make up for it.

[He closes the door and walks off.]

[Some of us just think we were always destined to be monsters and make their whole personality like that.]

[Remorse is...well another thing entirely.]

[and Red Son doesn't pursue him.]

[Instead just laying back on the floor and]

[Remind himself just how little he deserves any of the kindness he's received.]

[He hasn't done near enough work for it. To earn it.]

[He doesn't know if he ever will.]

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