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lego monkie kid: sun wukong

[Open] Just the Honest Truth

WHO: Sun Wukong and YOU
WHAT: Just heading home after a successful trip out.
WHEN: August 12th
WHERE: Blossomcrown and Red Son's house.
WARNINGS: Carefree attitudes, and total honesty (prompted or not)

Blossomcrown

[Mission accomplished! Man it feels good to reward yourself for good work. It's a nice day and he's got a pair of soft pelts rolled under one arm as he walks home. He could have just flown the rest of the way, but stretching his legs is good and he wants to take in things from ground-level today.

Really, the only downside was being bit in the tail by this weird mushroom, but it's not like it really hurt much so it's just a little detail in the back of his mind. Nothing to worry about, especially because he doesn't know the consequences yet.]

Red Son's House

I'm home!

[Walking inside, he listens around for any signs of life besides the growing zoo they're starting. He's not going to be surprised to hear Red Son in his workshop, but it's getting close to dinnertime which means it's almost time to drag him out anyway.

As for MK, well he's as likely to be here as he isn't. That kid's a real doer. He smiles at the thought as he closes the door and squats to greet the two Pokemon.

Have you two been keeping Red Son from overdoing it~?

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Good. I'm really glad you've let me get close to you.

[ He's great company, and even though he's not usually apt to talk about himself this much, it's nice that he's trusting her a bit. Too bad it's more the mushroom bite making it happen but she doesn't know that. ]

So am I.

[>What he doesn't know yet won't hurt them. Probably won't even when they do know.]

When things settle a bit again, we'll have to have a real hangout again. Or do some training.

Why not both? Other than drinking your blood, everything's on the table.

[ Ain't it a shame she has to add that caveat, but she's in a weird position. ]

Yeah, yeah. I remember. Even if I still think it's not really fair.

Anyway, I'd be down for both. I also promised MK some training so you're free to join that too.

-- What do you mean it's not fair?

[ If anyone should think it's unfair, it's her. Being denied delicious immortal blood from someone she likes! But she wants to respect Red Son's feelings and prevent things from getting worse between him and Wukong and also prevent more innocent writing implements from getting exploded. ]

I mean it's not fair to either of us. Especially not to you.

[He stops walking finally, his tail lashing a little.]

I know that you want to be respectful of Red Son's feelings toward me. But his issues aare dictating something that you do for fun that really isn't any of my business. I wouldn't be alse to do that to someone I care about. MK is growing close to Macaque, despite the fact that we can barely be in a room together. I don't get it, but I'm not about to tell him what he can and can't do around him.

...and I don't like feeling like it's a boundary that wasn't set because we decided through experience. It feels like it was set because his feelings matter more. But I also know that you've known him longer.

...I didn't realize it bothered you. [ Softly. She feels bad about that, but... ]

It's not about having known him longer. It's that when you care so deeply about someone, it matters what they want more than it matters what you want. I may not love being restricted, but I do love him. And that means he gets to ask this of me.

-- And also, if I push it will just make him angrier with you. Which serves nothing, least of all either of you.

He just needs time to trust you. Maybe it feels unfair; hell, maybe it is unfair, but emotions don't care about fairness.

Which is also why you're entitled to be put out. I get it. [ She squeezes his hand. ] But he can't keep me from being close to you in any other way. That, I wouldn't stand for.

I don't know how to explain it properly. I'm not mad about you making the choice, and it's not that I don't get that feeling of wanting to put him before you. Just...I'm on both sides of that right now between you and MK, and I don't think I'll be able to understand his mindset about it since I technically have a better relationship with him than I do Macaque. Especially because he tried to kill MK just to hurt me.

[He's calming again, just minor annoyed tail lashing.]

But I can respect your decision about it, especially if we're still friends.

You don't have to explain it. It sucks to feel like you're getting the short end of the stick. Especially when you can tell it's something I'd want to do if all other things were equal.

If drinking blood wasn't basically a kink to me, he'd probably be fine with it. It's like feeling jealous of a partner cheating on you. [ Which is, you know, understandable. ]

-- We are still friends. And I'm still your student. I respect your feelings about this, and I'm sorry it has to be this way for now.

Yeah, I just don't think it's a mindset I can ever really understand since you have an open relationship and knowing him, it's literally just me. If you were just you two then I'd get it easily.

But I'll accept and respect it.

I think it is just you, unfortunately. But he spent most of his life hating you, these things take time. I have faith in him, and in your ability to charm him eventually.

[ She kisses his cheek. ] Thank for for being kind about it, even though you don't entirely get it.

I mean, it might just be me. Selfishness lost me everything, and then I spent decades learning to put others need before mine. So I have been trying to. I'm just not very good at it.

On that note, what are you doing out this way?

I dunno, you seem pretty good at it. But if you think you're not -- [ she shrugs ] That takes time too, right? Changing. It's a lifelong process, even for immortals.

I was going to pester Red Son, make sure he's not working himself half to death. Also he probably wants to give me more scans or something now that I'm less of a mess. He's determined to keep me from going under.

I mean, I get told I'm handling it wrong pretty much every time someone can squeeze it in soooo. You're pretty much the only one who thinks differently. [He shrugs.>]

Oh he's been in his workshop nonstop. Even locked the pets out. You definitely need to check on him.

[ Wow, he's just as down on himself as Saya, isn't he? Don't like that! ]

Stop for a second.

[ If he does, she gives him a tight hug. ]

You're enough, to me. Flaws, perceived flaws, mistakes, and all of it. You're just right.

[It's really hard not to be down on yourself when practically everyone else is and you've just spent several days reliving hundreds of years of mistakes and regrets. But he does stop and listen, for a moment not sure to do with the hug and the words.

But then he just...hugs her back. Literally no one has ever said that to him. Not once.]

[ As much as she just said she gets why Red Son is angry at Wukong, part of her is going to be very put out the next time Red Son says anything remotely critical of him. She probably won't say anything because she does get it, but... ]

If you ever need a reminder of any of that, just come see me. I'll tell you as often as you need to hear it.

I can't promise I will, but I'll try to.

[When he's back outside his own head he knows he won't be as unguarded. But right now. He just really needed that.]

But seriously though. You need to check on Red Son too.

I'll take it.

[ She sighs at the mention of Red Son. ] I know. I hate what I've done to him.

It's not your fault he's as stubborn as he is about helping you. Red Son is the all-out type when it comes to his work.

Exactly. I knew that going in. He just got done with a project that consumed his life for centuries, and I've gone and given him another one.

If he hadn't started caring about me so much, he wouldn't be so desperate to fix things this cycle. He doesn't want me to forget him.

Maybe once I'm asleep he'll settle down a little.

I doubt he will. That's not who he is. But you getting him, or anyone, to care enough to want to help you isn't something to feel guilty about.

[ She chuckles humorlessly. ] I spend most of my life feeling guilty about getting close to anyone when it will only cause them pain. I know, I know, loss is a part of life, but there's loss and then there's having to look in the face of someone you love when they not only don't love you anymore, but they're not really the same person at all.

And that, over and over again, forever. It's cruel to inflict on anyone.

You're not wrong, about any of it. But at least here you have people that are willing to reach out and share that pain with you. That's valuable, both for you and them. For you it's similar to being reincarnated. For them it's like a stranger wearing your face.

I know that feeling they have, because of MK's friends.

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