[ Saya's done much, much, much worse things and been forgiven for them. It's not so difficult to find it within her to be compassionate. Hijikata nor his Rider will be helped by her being cold and cruel when all he wants is to make things right. ]
I think... there are a lot of people who can answer that question better than I can. Others more familiar with what being a Servant entails, and how best to fix this. It would be irresponsible of either of us to wildly speculate when there are better sources of information and ideas.
If they think you need to use more command spells, or go out there and talk her down, or use any magical items, or anything else, then you should do what they suggest with as little risk to yourself as possible. I'll help however I can. I have about six more days before my next experiment is scheduled, anyway. And I can delay it if I have to.
I know that "just wait" is probably hard to hear. But it's the surest way to not make matters worse. [ And possibly the most fitting punishment. ]
That doesn't mean do nothing, though. You need to figure out what caused you to make those mistakes and then start thinking about how you might make it up to her if she doesn't have her own suggestions. You'll have to work through whatever feelings you have about the fact that she might not be able to trust you again, at least not for a while, so that you don't make it her problem.
After she's back to herself, she'll feel a lot of things. [ Saya's eyes go a bit distant. She knows a lot about this. ] Many of them will be ugly. It will be hard to watch her go through them. You'll have to let her, without trying to fix her or try to convince her that she shouldn't feel them because of what you did. You'll have to be patient. Care about her even if she tries to tell you not to, even if she wants you to do it from a distance.
I'll help with that, too. No one knows better what it's like to lose control of yourself and hurt others in a haze. If she wants to talk to me, I'll sit with her and listen. Being with those who get it helps.
Do all that, and I think she'll be able to trust you again. I would.
[ She rests her hand over his to attempt to stop his fidgeting. And gives him a soft smile. ]
And once that happens, you must be worthy of that trust. That's the hard part.
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I think... there are a lot of people who can answer that question better than I can. Others more familiar with what being a Servant entails, and how best to fix this. It would be irresponsible of either of us to wildly speculate when there are better sources of information and ideas.
If they think you need to use more command spells, or go out there and talk her down, or use any magical items, or anything else, then you should do what they suggest with as little risk to yourself as possible. I'll help however I can. I have about six more days before my next experiment is scheduled, anyway. And I can delay it if I have to.
I know that "just wait" is probably hard to hear. But it's the surest way to not make matters worse. [ And possibly the most fitting punishment. ]
That doesn't mean do nothing, though. You need to figure out what caused you to make those mistakes and then start thinking about how you might make it up to her if she doesn't have her own suggestions. You'll have to work through whatever feelings you have about the fact that she might not be able to trust you again, at least not for a while, so that you don't make it her problem.
After she's back to herself, she'll feel a lot of things. [ Saya's eyes go a bit distant. She knows a lot about this. ] Many of them will be ugly. It will be hard to watch her go through them. You'll have to let her, without trying to fix her or try to convince her that she shouldn't feel them because of what you did. You'll have to be patient. Care about her even if she tries to tell you not to, even if she wants you to do it from a distance.
I'll help with that, too. No one knows better what it's like to lose control of yourself and hurt others in a haze. If she wants to talk to me, I'll sit with her and listen. Being with those who get it helps.
Do all that, and I think she'll be able to trust you again. I would.
[ She rests her hand over his to attempt to stop his fidgeting. And gives him a soft smile. ]
And once that happens, you must be worthy of that trust. That's the hard part.