semi-open 💐 I had to fall to lose it all

[acquirement]

WHO: Ayato, Kaveh and anyone with relevant CR
WHAT: Post-Death catch all
WHEN: June 1st onwards
WHERE: Multi places
WARNINGS: CW for death & trauma



{ ooc: feel free to add top levels for certain things in here, we just thought it'd be good to keep it all in one place! }

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[mistsplitter]

[ Contrary to popular belief, Ayaka is actually capable of feeling upset and angry at people. It's not very often that she feels emotions like this, however, and those rare moments that she does, she even feels bad for it.

Ayato is her brother, though, and even though she may pout and be disappointed that her brother doesn't get enough rest or doesn't eat on time, she could never truly be upset with him. And yet. . . ]

It... is upsetting. [ But that's all she can bear to admit. Even thinking of continuing that thought hurts her, constricts her heart in her chest, and makes everything so difficult to bear.

She no longer cries, at least. Not now. Perhaps when she is alone. ]

Your return and Thoma's well-being are more important, however.

[acquirement]

{ he's watching her carefully to see her response, and it isn't a relief that she doesn't get upset with him, because he has to wonder how much of it she's internalising. he knows on some level that what he did was wrong, but not being able to be there when she learned of it felt wrong.

and maybe that should be a sign he has been overprotective and not given her room to struggle through certain things, but why would he put her through that if he had a chance not to? }

Nothing is more important than you, Ayaka. Please don't say otherwise.

[mistsplitter]

[ Ayaka finds herself at a loss, unsure of what to even say to that. She understands her brother, but she cannot seem to put her personal feelings aside despite everything that has happened... She hopes he will let her take some time to mend this heartache.

And she hopes he will excuse her for no longer commenting on it, instead changing the subject. ]

I know you said you aren't hungry at this time, but would you like me to make some onigiri? When you'd like to eat, it shall be there, at least even for a small bite.

[ He could get sick, otherwise, if he doesn't eat! ]

[acquirement]

{ he won't say anything else on the matter when she moves the conversation on. he looks away again as she brings food back up, and it's too soon to think of it, so he won't in too much detail and makes a simple request. }

I suppose if it's plain... it may be all right.

[mistsplitter]

I will make them small, and I will not make too much.

[ She'll finish up her tea first, though, then she'll excuse herself so she can get to work. At least it'll still be in the kitchen, so Ayato is still with her! ]

[acquirement]

Thank you.

{ he appreciates her concern at least, and willingness to not overwhelm him with it to start. she'll likely feel his eyes on her as she prepares things, even if he's quiet, it's likely a sign that he hasn't zoned out. }