seasonsrpg | semi-open 💐 I had to fall to lose it all

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semi-open 💐 I had to fall to lose it all

WHO: Ayato, Kaveh and anyone with relevant CR
WHAT: Post-Death catch all
WHEN: June 1st onwards
WHERE: Multi places
WARNINGS: CW for death & trauma

{ ooc: feel free to add top levels for certain things in here, we just thought it'd be good to keep it all in one place! }

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Of course.

[ Thoma's mind isn't in that space either, for once. So there's only a gentle smile and no accompanying blush as he takes the offered hand, standing up with offered help. He moves away only for a moment, to pick up the pack he'd left here over the last few days, slinging it over one shoulder before he offers his other arm to his lord. ]

Do let me know if you're feeling cold or thirsty or- anything. I may have something on hand to help.

{ his arm curls around around thoma's, before his hand reaches down until their fingers are lacing together and he's able to hold on. }

I don't need anything else, just you.

{ and yet it feels odd to walk again, as though his legs feel like jelly to start with. maybe he was on his knees too long, but they ache. }

You have me.

[ He'll repeat it as many times as he needs, squeezing that hand under his in reassurance as well. Though his attention is drawn by the way Ayato seems to lean on him a bit more than he might normally. ]

... My lord, would you object to being carried at this point?

{ he falters a little at the offer, and if thoma is looking he'll notice how his eyes move to the bag. }

I don't expect you to carry both me and whatever you brought with you at the same time. I'll manage.

{ he is, apparently, going to stubbornly try to carry on. he'll walk it off, it'll be okay. }

[ Why would he be looking anywhere else other than at Ayato?? ]

I'm more than strong enough to carry you both easily.

[ Even worn out as he is, Ayato's presence alone has proven rejuvenating... for now, anyway. ]

{ watch where you're walking thoma?!?!? }

Oh.

{ it isn't much of a response, and if the circumstances weren't what they were, that piece of knowledge would have made his mind slip towards certain thoughts. as it is, he seems surprised somehow. honestly he doesn't know if he really needs it, but the idea of getting to settle close to the other again is appealing. }

Are you sure?

[ Please he has walked this path enough in the last few days that he can and has walked it in his sleep- ]

I'm sure.

[ He's about to shift the pack onto his back before he pauses, considering the other man properly for a moment. ]

I can carry you in my arms, or on my back... I wasn't sure which would be more comfortable for you right now. You'd have to hold on if it's my back.

{ he doesn't know that... he doesn't even know how long he's been gone yet. }

Which would be easier for you?

{ his voice is quiet when he asks, as though some of that guilt still hasn't gone away. }

I doubt I'll have any issues either way, not when it is you doing the carrying.

[ He doesn't need to know about Thoma's unhealthy life choices. ]

Then... if you do not mind, I would like to carry you in my arms. So that I can see your face and remind myself that you have returned.

[ If Ayato says he doesn't have a preference, then Thoma will be honest about his own. ]

{ :<

the honesty has his own expression shifting into something that certainly seems guilty, just for a moment before it softens. }

Of course that's fine. How... would you like to go about this?

Here, just hold the bag and let me know if it gets too heavy for you.

[ He'll hand the bag he'd picked up to Ayato, and after a moment's debate, he'll lean in to kiss the other man's cheek, soft and affectionate. ]

You don't need to make that expression, my lord. I was just too anxious.

Very well.

{ he'll take the bag without question, fully intending to just hold it against himself. though he's surprised at how heavy it actually is once it's in his hands.

what on earth did thoma bring-

but then he's distracted from that with the kiss on his cheek, and reminded of the emotion that had definitely reared its ugly head moments before. }

Of course I do. I caused you pain, even if it was unintentional.

And you've brought me joy on so many more occasions.

[ He's going to reach out and scoop Ayato right into his arms in the standard princess carry, offering his lord a small smile. ]

Right now, I am full of relief and joy, seeing you again. The only pain I'm feeling is at knowing you went through so much, and there's only so much I can do for you in turn.

{ is it possible to fall for the same person multiple times? because between those words and being swept up in a way that makes his breath hitch, ayato's eyes go wide as he looks up at the other again. he's almost left speechless. }

Being here is more than enough, Thoma.

[ The look of surprise nearly makes Thoma hesitate, but his lord's lack of protest or obvious signs of discomfort relaxes those anxious thoughts. It's a comfort to him, feeling the weight of Ayato's body in his arms, and it's almost silly how many little signs he needs to seek out to truly feel the return of his lord but... this helps. ]

[ And if he's helping Ayato in turn, it's all the better. ]

Then please keep me by your side forever.

{ nope, that look of surprise is quickly shifting into something much much softer, adoration clear as day as he sinks into the warm hold thoma has on him.

his heart feels like it's pounding in his ears, and he blames feeling so vulnerable already for how this seems to affect him so much.

it's so easy to just melt into the hold, and even if one hand has to hold onto the bag the other reaches up to gently caress thoma's cheek. }

Always. I wouldn't dream of otherwise.

[ His voice is just as soft, half murmured in intimacy even if they're the only ones in this area. ]

Thank you, Ayato. Please, rest while I take you home.

[ He'll be beelining him straight home, unless the man has any protests. ]

{ rest, he says, while he feels incredibly special to be carried like this right now to the point he has to wonder when his heart rate will slow down from before.

slowly, his head tips to rest against thoma, eyes peering up to look at his face with the smallest, yet warmest smile on his face.

he'll have to process everything else later, but for now he'll drown himself in that feeling of safety and security that thoma's arms bring as he's carried home--and not a single protest will fall from his lips on the way. nor will any come as thoma fusses over him as he gets ready to settle. none will come when thoma's head hits the pillow and he passes out either. he can't bring himself to close his eyes yet, but he will bask in his form of sunshine for a while more as the other gets some much earned and needed rest. }

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