But I'm not going to be good company. [ he counters for all the good it's going to do. he knows alhaitham isn't going to let him bury himself in all of this negativity, but he's on such a steep downward spiral that it's difficult to think anything else. ] I can't keep my thoughts straight. What am I even supposed to talk about... [ normal things, probably, anything but what he experienced in the mansion. ]

[ part of him knows he shouldn't keep it bottled up, but another part of him doesn't want to share any of what he experienced. it was bad enough ayato had to see it. ]

...thank you. [ hopefully having alhaitham ground him in some normalcy will help him recover quicker. ]