seasonsrpg | march catch-all.

[ And there's that pleasant yet confusing surge of feeling through his arm again. Alongside Alhaitham's annoying manhandling, as he uses that hand to lead Kaveh back toward the living room. ]

I haven't been in contact with anyone since.

[ There is a pointedly lack of saying what Alhaitham feels on his side as he heads for the coffee table in the room to write what appear to be notes. ]

[ kaveh stumbles, not having expected to be dragged back into the living room. ] Alhaitham, that's... dangerous. [ but he's not surprised, given who he's talking to. he squeezes his hand in a silent promise to help whenever he can. he hadn't had much contact in the past few days. he might have held hands with tighnari once, so he had started to feel weary, but that feeling of lethargy is completely gone now. ]

[ he takes his hand back when they reach the coffee table, eyes looking over the notes as he considers his next move. ] And how were you feeling then compared to now?

We were able to last five days before, and I planned for initiating contact with someone by the end of today at the latest.

[ If Kaveh had refused to be in contact with him, he'd planned to speak with Cyno or Tighnari since either of them would understand it from a clinical point of view. But given that he wasn't sure of his own reaction to others at the moment, that could have been an event of some annoyance. ]

[ Somehow, in spite of everything complex between them, some things were just simpler with Kaveh. ]

The desires I had at that moment are more muted than they were this time. I struggled with controlling them before, but now they were manageable.

[ By some definition of struggling, anyway. Alhaitham's notes are clean and precise, primarily documenting conversations he'd witnessed over the network system here. ]

I know, but this is probably not something we should stress test to this extent. [ ... ] Did you see the network post that somebody had made saying their friend turned to stone? What if, what if that's a result of this? [ he doesn't want to see him turned to ( literal ) stone. ]

...mm, I noticed that too, but it could have just been because we're getting used to it. Not to mention we had been significantly closer... [ and more intimate. ] This is a start, [ he takes a seat beside him and turns, moving to push him into the plush cushions. kaveh follows, caging him in with a hand on either side of his head. ] but we need to run a few more tests.

[ Pinned is not a word Alhaitham often uses in application to himself but, apparently, Kaveh has decided to change that starting now. His eyes narrow with some suspicion as to what the other man's up to; he didn't already get touch-drunk again, did he? ]

Oh? Do you have your own tests in mind now?

[ no, he's not touch drunk, alhaitham. ] We need to conduct the same experiment and compare the results. 5 days vs 3 days. We did more than hold hands the other day, Alhaitham. If we do the same things, then we'll be able to see how much of a difference there is. Not to much that things may have escalated due to some strange outside force. [ but let's not talk about that. ] What do you say?

[ he doesn't give him a chance to answer, and instead kaveh just kisses him. he hates to admit that it feels just as good, which is not the answer he had been hoping for. that means there's something else at work. ]

[ Kaveh we need to have a talk about the ethical concerns in your practices surrounding acquiring consent. ]

[ Clearly not now, with Kaveh's mouth over his own, and this time he's more than aware he can't attribute it to Kaveh being touch drunk again. He was annoyingly sober, a fact Alhaitham had been literally faced with, so the only thing driving Kaveh right now was whatever wild ideas he was having and his own fervor. ]

[ Well. Fine. If Kaveh is going to be so insistent on kissing, then they'll kiss. A head reaches up to cover over the back of Kaveh's head, keeping him from pulling away as Alhaitham finally returns that kiss instead of laying there like a dead fish. And pointedly ignores the jolts of pleasure it immediately sends through him at his own retaliatory action. ]

[ kaveh didn’t intend on kissing him for too long, but as soon as he feels the hand on the back of his head and alhaitham pressing in closer all of that goes out the window. he indulges in the kiss, stuffing those thoughts about why aside. he can dissect these feelings later… maybe. honestly, he’d rather not, but he’ll think on it when his head isn’t soaring straight up into the clouds. ]

[ finally breathless, he breaks the kiss, ripping his head down to catch his breath as he sinks down to lay on top of alhaitham. a bad idea, probably, but smushing his face against his chest is the only way he can hide his blush at the moment. ]

[ This is what happens you follow your instincts or hormones or whatever Kaveh was listening to instead of his head. Alhaitham's mind is annoyingly prevented from racing through possibilities and probabilities that could come from this, that happy fuzzy cloud of pleasure a foreign and persistent presence inside his head while their lips touch. ]

[ Or maybe it's just Kaveh that messes with his ability to approach everything to do with the man rationally. ]

[ It's probably both. ]

[ Alhaitham's more than a little out of breath when the kiss breaks, unused to it himself, but he does apparently gather enough back in him to say what needs to be said. ]

Now you're feeling shy?

[ Or to be a smartass. ]

...shut up. I can't think straight again. [ at least now. before he had been thinking rationallyish, but the haze that's his clarity in horny is making it difficult to do anything but kiss, and touch, and indulge. ] I don't get it, this doesn't make sense, nobody else... [ makes him feel quite like this. ]

I think we've established that prolonged contact between us has a tendency to mess with both of our minds. Laying on me isn't going to return your intelligence.

[ That hand on Kaveh's head gently removes itself, Alhaitham letting it fall to the side lest he start following such mindless temptations like running it through Kaveh's hair. Kaveh is free to move whenever he wishes now. ]

One possible theory is that our continued close proximity to each other before this in Sumeru had an effect on our reactions. Another is that our visions, genetic make up, or temperment have some influence in the matter. Tighnari would be a better resource for investigating that.

…no. [ but he also doesn’t feel like moving. alhaitham is comfortable, and instead of thinking about the reasons for all this craziness kaveh is letting his thoughts wander. he has to refrain from saying he doesn’t care, because he does, but he also doesn’t. ] In a minute. [ he turns his head, staring down the other half of his chest as he draws a circle around his breast. ]

Do you think that means that Tighnari and Cyno are having similar issues. Although, if our visions are somehow responsible for the added difficulty, then… perhaps not. [ no comment on temperament, because that is definitely a factor. ] We can ask him, but… maybe later.

[ he sits up, his hand on alhaitham’s chest and he feels his restraint crumbling. he squeezes, most definitely trying to pass it off as a result of his moving. ] W- What’s the rush?

[ Kaveh. This is harassment by most textbook definitions. ]

[ He grunts at the sudden touch to his chest, about to reach up a hand to catch that wandering one- he does not want to be anymore distracted than he is now by simply having Kaveh laying on top of him. Unfamiliar body heat pressed against his own is all sorts of distracting and strange and yet there's a comfort to it that does make him wonder if this is simply something between him and Kaveh or if it's a remnant of some childhood comfort he had, like the way he would fall asleep with heavy texts on his chest as a child. ]

[ But before he can formulate any theories around that, Kaveh, ever energetic as always, quickly moves on to finally sitting up and- ]

[ Kaveh that is harassment by all textbook definitions. ]

[ Alhaitham is fixing him with the most pointed look now. ]

You keep fondling me.

[ kaveh’s brain functions have been start and stop since they decided to experiment, and while he does regret pushing the envelope… he doesn’t want to stop now. ] … [ he doesn’t look alhaitham in the eyes once he’s accused of breaking the invisible barrier between them, instead casting his gaze off to the side as his face starts to color with embarrassment. ]

That last one had been a bit of an accident. [ implying the first hadn’t. he has a choice to make, give up or double down. ] If… you don’t like it I can stop. [ kaveh finally looks at him with more intensity than he might have expected, because he’s searching for an answer likely kept beneath all the logical and rational thoughts. ]

You can’t deny it’s… different. [ between us, that is. ]

[ It's easy, meeting Kaveh's gaze even while the other man's eyes brim with emotion. Kaveh's always like that, full of brightness and everything he's feeling is always so evident on his face, even when he's being shy and hesitant like he is now. He's really quite terrible at hiding it. ]

[ What's difficult is putting his finger on the answer he'd like to verbalize. The way he tended to act around Kaveh and treat him was certainly his usual self but there was a difference to it at the same time; it was almost as if he got pulled along with Kaveh's rhythm more and more often. He'd long ago regarded Kaveh as a mirror of sorts, a reflection of a way of thinking that opposed Alhaitham's and an approach to life that, if observed, would expand his own way of thought in spaces he normally wouldn't. ]

[ It's fascinating in a way. So of course, he can only answer one way, simple but clear in its logic when faced with the facts. ]

Everything is different with you.

... [ for some reason that hits hard. everything? kaveh swallows, not having expected to be so expertly bullied. his mouth drops open for a moment, as he tries to come up with some kind of response, but the stammers out nothing but nonsense as his face colors pink. he eventually just nods, because he's at a literal loss for words. ]

[ he doesn't know what, exactly, makes his relationship with alhaitham so electro-charged, but no one makes him feel so intensely about anything. the good, the bad, & the ugly. it's all always amplified when he's with him. this place just made that fact more obvious. ]

[ the silence that hangs between them stretches, becoming a bit too much, so he says the first thing that comes to mind. ] Does that mean you don't want me to stop?

[ Dendro and dendro don't have a reaction thou- ]

[ A dozen emotions may be going through Kaveh's mind but Alhaitham's at the moment is quite simple, satisfied with how that single sentence was able to convey his thoughts with apparent efficiency. ]

It means you should ask first.

[ We're not dropping that consent issue Kaveh. ]

[ yeah yeah, he’ll ask next time, but he’s noticed that he’s avoiding answering the question. ]

[ he leans in until they’re nose to nose. ] I will, now answer the question. Did you like it?

[ In turn, Alhaitham fixes his eyes on Kaveh in return, not backing down as is the normal for them. ]

Which part are you referring to?

… [ of course. ] How it felt - the touching and the, [ no, he’s not going to be the one to back down first. ] the kissing.

[ Can't believe shy and hesitant Kaveh is gone and now it's just aggressive Kaveh in his face. Of course he's not gonna stop being an ass. ]

Those are two parts, Kaveh.

One I did. One I'd like more if you asked before doing so.

… [ he is the most annoying, but at least he answered. ] Give me blanket permission then. I’m asking right now, Alhaitham, for all future encounters.

[ Would he be Alhaitham the Scribe if he wasn't absolutely infuriating at all times? ]

Hah. What sort of scholar would give such an open invitation?

You have permission to kiss me at your discretion. Further actions will require advanced notification or a negotiation.

[ ... At all times. ]

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