"I guess it's a coping mechanism", Jean admits quietly with a shrug before the mood changes rather drastically.
Keep moving forward was something very Reiner-like. He had always been like that. Just pressing on, no matter what. Even - or especially - when things got desperate. Many others stopped and broke down, but not him. His armor may have gotten cracks, but he still carried on.
That's probably what he would do even after Shiganshina, depending on what happens with Marley. Just moving forward despite his world and soul breaking apart.
Jean hears him. Reiner's voice may be quiet, but to Jean the words are loud and clear once they reach him. A shiver goes down his spine. Reiner had been that close to just saying fuck it and ending the pact. Because of- No. Not just because of what he said, but for all that happened. Jean would have still probably carried the blame. Become the person who single-handedly destroyed any chances of peace they could have.
And he would have lost a friend.
He presses himself into the corner of the couch. As if to appear smaller than he is. So he doesn't take Reiner's space. At least he wasn't running away, even if the temptation was there.
"... I would never ask you to forgive me. It's not like I can forgive you for Marco, either. But this is exactly what I meant. I just keep hurting you one way or another."
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Keep moving forward was something very Reiner-like. He had always been like that. Just pressing on, no matter what. Even - or especially - when things got desperate. Many others stopped and broke down, but not him. His armor may have gotten cracks, but he still carried on.
That's probably what he would do even after Shiganshina, depending on what happens with Marley. Just moving forward despite his world and soul breaking apart.
Jean hears him. Reiner's voice may be quiet, but to Jean the words are loud and clear once they reach him. A shiver goes down his spine. Reiner had been that close to just saying fuck it and ending the pact. Because of- No. Not just because of what he said, but for all that happened. Jean would have still probably carried the blame. Become the person who single-handedly destroyed any chances of peace they could have.
And he would have lost a friend.
He presses himself into the corner of the couch. As if to appear smaller than he is. So he doesn't take Reiner's space. At least he wasn't running away, even if the temptation was there.
"... I would never ask you to forgive me. It's not like I can forgive you for Marco, either. But this is exactly what I meant. I just keep hurting you one way or another."