[ She makes a sad chirping sound ]

< If I could be sure the past wouldn't repeat itself, that makes sense. But I don't know what causes me to lose control of myself, and it seems to keep happening. Butchering civilians and friends while out of my mind is a nightmare. If I could stop having that happen at least I'd feel I paid some small debt to the people I killed while I was a weapon of war. >

[ This is an upgrade from thinking the only thing that could square that debt is her life. ]