[leaving that a mystery for now because Judith is very perceptive but also timeywimey handwaving She doesn't really need to know the whys. Just what happened and how it affected people. Judith makes a noise of agreement when Saya says she's not "well-reasoned".]

That, I have to agree with. You don't seem to have much sense at all right now.

[Blunt, honest. She's not going to coddle anyone]

You certainly do no favours for yourself that way. Or anyone around you. That obsession with your own feelings at the expense of reality will kill you in a different way.