[ There's a part of Reiner that wants to object to that offer. A part of him that wants to turn it down, ask Jean to keep the information to himself. He doesn't want Levi to hear about this; he doesn't want to share it with anyone else. What happens if the rest of the Scouts find out? What happens if his weakness (fear, trauma) is used against him?
Telling Jean is different. Jean is—no, Jean was Reiner's friend, one of his closest in the 104th. Foolishly, Reiner still trusts Jean, at least in this. Because of who Jean is. Because of what Jean has experienced. Because of the scars Jean hides beneath his shirt, not wanting to discuss their origin.
But a greater part of Reiner recognizes how undeserving he is of Jean's aid, much less his empathy. And it is that part of Reiner that ultimately prevails, his throat tightening again, that ache in his chest twisting. He wishes…
Fuck, he wishes for so many things. ]
Thank you, Jean, [ he manages, trying to mirror Jean's smile and probably looking a little pathetic. ] Sorry about all this.
[ Apologizing, again. Reiner can't seem to help himself. At least this apology is for something that could potentially be forgiven. ]
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Telling Jean is different. Jean is—no, Jean was Reiner's friend, one of his closest in the 104th. Foolishly, Reiner still trusts Jean, at least in this. Because of who Jean is. Because of what Jean has experienced. Because of the scars Jean hides beneath his shirt, not wanting to discuss their origin.
But a greater part of Reiner recognizes how undeserving he is of Jean's aid, much less his empathy. And it is that part of Reiner that ultimately prevails, his throat tightening again, that ache in his chest twisting. He wishes…
Fuck, he wishes for so many things. ]
Thank you, Jean, [ he manages, trying to mirror Jean's smile and probably looking a little pathetic. ] Sorry about all this.
[ Apologizing, again. Reiner can't seem to help himself. At least this apology is for something that could potentially be forgiven. ]