{ it isn't something he plans to keep a secret from her in this instance, but he doesn't realise the implication by his words right now--he just meant thoma was in his room asleep, and while he could just go back there, he doesn't want the lull of sleep to pull him in yet.
he's using insomnia control to keep awake. enough that while he's clear he's been up by his clothing and the like, he doesn't appear overly tired. any tiredness that lingers is from crying for the first time in years.
when ayaka leans back in though, he'll sigh out softly, relief evident in that one rush of breath. anyone else and he'd likely be ready to flinch away, a reminder of being gripped and pulled in the back of his mind. ayaka's warmth and her small frame make it much easier. }
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he's using insomnia control to keep awake. enough that while he's clear he's been up by his clothing and the like, he doesn't appear overly tired. any tiredness that lingers is from crying for the first time in years.
when ayaka leans back in though, he'll sigh out softly, relief evident in that one rush of breath. anyone else and he'd likely be ready to flinch away, a reminder of being gripped and pulled in the back of his mind. ayaka's warmth and her small frame make it much easier. }
Are you comfortable enough like this?