I don't expect anything from you except maybe pancakes.

[ She's being honest not because she has a certain reaction in mind from him, but because that's how she's wired. ]

I don't expect any of this will work, no. Or maybe I can't allow myself to think it will work because it's some defense mechanism, who knows. I'm going to try because I don't have anything to lose and because the people who care about me need to know that they did everything possible to prevent it. In the meantime I'll put on whatever face I have to, I'll be an experiment all over again, if it makes this one speck easier on them. [ Except bringing her Chevaliers into this, old or possible new ones, or their blood, or anything of the like. It's a complicated emotion but it's beyond the pale. Emotionally it's the equivalent of her asking someone else to be tortured for her sake. ]

If it actually works I'll be thrilled, but... [ but she can't let it in. ]