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WHO: Kaveh, Shigeru, & YOU.
WHAT: Paint & Pour.
WHEN: April 2nd.
WHERE: Spring Segment, Prism Lake
WARNINGS: Drunk Painting.

[ kaveh decided to set up the paint & pour on the shores of prism lake, because a beautiful landscape seemed like something that artists of all skill level could enjoy creating. not to mention, it's also something that probably wouldn't suffer too much if/when guests inevitably started getting tispy. ]

[ there are three canopy tents framing the lake and, unsurprisingly, the first of which has all manner of art supplies: canvases, easels, and paints. the second has an assortment of delicious snacks made by shigeru and the third, final, and likely most anticipated has the wine. there are at least a dozen bottles, each labeled with the segment and shop it came from, because kaveh absolutely went around with the intention of helping them promote their business. ]

[ it's not a complete lie!
everybody wins!! ]

( ooc; feel free to assume that your character received an invitation from either kaveh or shigeru. it IS open to the public though, so if your character is strolling by and so much as makes eye contact with either of them, then they'll likely get dragged into the fun. anyway! bring your own top level~! )

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{ Is what you want really that grave of a mistake? }

You would think something that feels so right wouldn't be, wouldn't you?

{ but he knows how hard they've had to fight to get to where they are now. }

If anything, I doubt we'd be where we are today without their aid, but I don't think Her Excellency or people of Inazuma would recognise that in this instance.

{ his mouth feels dry, so he takes another sip of water. }

The evidence already shows they're a harsher judge than either of us would like.

[ He is not answering her questions directly... Though perhaps Ayaka is seeing this as something so simple. If it is not wrong, nor does it harm whom they serve, then he may pursue it if he so wishes. ]

I do not believe it to be entirely true. What I have learned after the events of the Sakoku Decree is that we are all changing, and we have learned to accept, to forgive, and to welcome others.

[ Inazuma may not be perfect, but they are all still serving the Raiden Shogun, aren't they? Even though they themselves played a big part in the resistance. ]

{ he isn't answering her questions directly, though part of that is trying to not make ayaka feel responsible for helping him decide what to do. }

There's... simply no delicate way to say this, but what I'm proposing would not be the norm and-- { his fingers tighten on his glass, eyes lowered to it until he forces himself to look towards her. } --it would require either asking you to take the burden of continuing our lineage, or perhaps I'd have to accept the scandals of finding a mistress. { the second part is an attempt to find some humour in it all.

but this time, he'll end it by being more direct. }

I'm talking about another man, Ayaka.

[ This must not have been easy to say. Ayaka's not quite sure how to... process all this, but there is nothing she wants more than her brother's happiness. It is at the forefront of her thoughts at this time, listening to him speak and try to reason with her.

At her core, she does not really see anything wrong. Is it surprising? Yes, because Ayaka herself never really pictured her brother with anyone. He'd just been so busy! But knowing more about her brother now, it fills her with this feeling of... fulfilment. She is learning more about him, and her brother trusts her enough to share this with her.

She does not know what words of comfort to give her brother at this time. But perhaps it may not be comfort Ayato seeks. Moving closer to him to take his hand, easing him to let go of the glass first so she can lace their fingers together, she offers him a small smile. ]

My love,
The vast spaces of the sky
Has filled, it seems, for
Though I try to send it on,
There’s nowhere it can go.

[ If it is what you are feeling, Ayato— if it is love—then you must take the opportunity, otherwise, you will be filled with so much pain your heart that it would fill the sea and the sky, until there is no place else for it to go. ]

{ he isn't sure how to process all this either, and he partly blames the alcohol in his system for caving and talking to her about it to begin with. sadly, the one person he likely would have turned to is the one he can't in this instance, because he didn't want to burden her with this.

he lets her peel the glass away from his hand, holding it with the other before he leans to place it on the table. when it's out of the way he'll give her hand a gentle squeeze, even if hearing those words makes it almost harder to deny.

he doesn't think there's ever been a moment he hasn't been certain of his love for either of them, ayaka and thoma both have been his pillars and reason for fighting as hard as he does. but this is a different form of it that threatens the status quo to either make it soar or come crashing down for all of them.

he'll be sad if he doesn't pursue it, yes, but the alternative if it goes wrong?

that may end him, and he knows it.

but putting that concern into words is harder than he thinks, if only because he already thinks he's said too much. }

I'll-- { and his voice cracks, a sign of how hard this has been for him so far. it's been long enough already. } --bear that in mind. { his thumb trails over the back of her hand, taking comfort from the warmth of it. }

I'm sorry for burdening you with this, Ayaka. I'd hoped that I could come to a conclusion on my own, nor do I have anyone else to talk to.

[ Ayaka closes her eyes as she shakes her head, her ribbons and her hair swaying with her. Ayato could never burden him with anything. Whatever is passed onto her, it is something she takes wholeheartedly and with great honour. Anything to lessen what it is that ails her brother, because he should be supported in everything that he does. ]

There is nothing to apologise for... We are family.

[ They're supposed to be able to talk to one another. If Ayaka can't tell Ayato anything, when he's the only one she has left for family, it just wouldn't make sense. It hurts her heart too much to think of that possibility.

What hurts her now is the situation her brother is in. She cannot help, nor can she just outright say be selfish, because Ayato does bring up valid points. It is what she would like to say, because she would like him to be happy too, and she doesn't see anything wrong with the idea of pursuing his interests. In fact, she is happy for Ayato, that there is someone for him. Perhaps... she should get the opinion of someone more knowing. If the Raiden Shogun is here, or even Yae Miko... maybe they might be able to strengthen her belief that the people of Inazuma are changing. That her brother's happiness won't mean his own destruction.

When she opens her eyes to look at their hands, tears flow down and drop on them.

She lets out a little sniff. ]

{ for the most part, he would talk to her, but things like this that weigh more heavily he's definitely avoided it in the past. but now, for this matter, he has no where else to turn. and days of not sleeping are extending, mind caught up in the what ifs.

of course, it isn't an issue here. but then what if they return home and one of them doesn't remember while the other does? what if they were targeted for it? what if it's used against them in some other way?

he has to think through all the possible scenarios first, and all of them seem to lead to despair if he lets them.

he's brought out of his own thoughts when he feels a drop of wetness on his hand, eyes turning back to look at ayaka as she cries. it twists something inside of him, his own face looking apologetic and pained for causing this too.

his other hand reaches out, a gloved thumb gently sweeping to catch the tears before they fall. }

Please, don't cry.

[ But if you won't cry, Ayato, then who will?

Telling her not to cry only makes her sniff harder. Ayaka has always been the more emotional of the two siblings, but she also understands that she can't always be little Ayaka, crying all the time... ]

I do not like this situation you find yourself in.

[ Just... lays it on there honestly, no sugarcoating anything. Ayaka has always been honest, after all. More importantly, she wishes she could do something about it. ]

I do not, most of all, wish for you to be troubled.

{ tears doesn't get anything done, nor does he have time for them. so she's incredibly on point that he hasn't cried for himself this entire time. instead he's tried focusing on ways to make this work without causing more issues.

but even he's feeling the tiredness of being so trapped now. }

For now, I may just have to count my blessings, { he gives her a smile, trying to be reassuring, but ayaka can probably see it doesn't reach his eyes. } and just treasure the moments I do have with them. I'll figure something out in the meantime.

[ She's the one who should be doing the reassuring in this instance... She hopes being able to listen to him at least helps. ]

May I ask who it is?

[ This person must be so special... And it must be someone from home, no? Ah— hang on...

She wipes away her tears with the back of her other hand and looks at her brother. Giving his hand a squeeze, she make a guess. ]

Is it Thoma?

{ when the questions come it feels like his heart is pounding so loudly his ears ring. the way his eyes shift away from her is answer enough before he actually uses words. }

It is. { it's all she gets for a moment before he sighs out. } Now you can see why I need to handle this delicately.

{ to his credit, he doesn't seem to be flustered or embarrassed about her knowing, if anything it probably only further proves how important it is to him that he figures this out in the safest way possible. }

[ ... At least Ayaka needn't question if this person will be loyal to her brother or not. If they are a good fit or not. She may not want to size up the object of Ayato's affections the way he would Cloud, but her chest feels lighter knowing this. It means that coming up with a solution and having everyone happy in the end seems a lot easier.

And if they fail, even much more difficult.

But it is Ayaka who looks on the brighter side of things. A smile is put on her face as she rubs the side of Ayato's hand with her thumb, still not letting go of their joined hands. ]

How did he let his feelings known?

{ while the previous questions didn't cause any reason for a reaction, this does. if ayaka is watching carefully she will notice the slightest flush of his skin as the question elicits memories he should not be having here right now.

how did he let his feelings known? should not cause a reason for not being able to look her in the eye anymore, trying to find the right way to answer. in the end, all he can say is-- }

I think that may be something I may have to keep to myself.

{ sorry, ayaka, but you don't need to know about this. }

Ah-!

[ A little too quickly, she pulls her hand away, as if she'd just touched something hot. It flies to cover her mouth when she gasps, and in the end, she apologises. ]

I'm sorry, I was- I realise it was too personal to ask.

[ She was hoping for a romantic story!! But she does not mind it in the slightest if Ayato would prefer to keep it to himself. Something like this? It is special. And if Ayato does not truly know what to do yet, then perhaps they should not talk about it any further if his heart is in disarray. ]

{ as much as she may have been hoping for one, it is not a romantic story.

perhaps once he's figured this out and found a way to move forward it can be. for now though...

he'll just be apologetic. }

There's no need for you to apologise, after all, I already asked you questions about how you and Cloud came to be together. { he'll reach out for his water again, focusing on that. } Unfortunately, this is just a story I shouldn't be sharing with my dearest sister. { how to say it without saying it. }

Edited (icon ksdjn) 2023-04-09 14:31 (UTC)

Alright.

[ What could it possibly be that Ayato can't tell her? It's okay if he doesn't, because she won't pry any further. She only hopes that he won't be too troubled moving forward... ]

Did speaking about it help in any way?

[ Telling her, she means. Even if he just needed someone to listen. She hopes that her presence helped even in the slightest. ]

{ her question does at least let him look her in the eye again, glad the previous line of questioning is over with. }

A little. I think I'm more relieved that when you worked it out you didn't seem to be horrified at the idea of it. { and that is a question on the tip of his tongue, something he is almost worried to ask. } Does it... bother you?

{ both of them probably know if it did it would mean he wouldn't pursue it further as well. }

Horrified?

[ Goodness! Not at all. But she understands his worry. ]

It does not bother me. [ Nor could she figure out why it would bother her in the first place. ] Though, I hope Thoma will spend time with me...

[ Ayaka is optimistic that the two will find a way to work things out. And as such, she hopes she does not lose Thoma as a friend if all his time goes to Ayato. He's very special to her too, after all. ]

An overexaggeration, but one I worried over nonetheless. { they've been family for so long, perhaps it would have been strange to hear it had changed in this way. } I very much doubt Thoma would spend less time with you though, so you needn't worry about that.

{ even if ayato is demanding of his time already skdgj }

There is nothing for you to worry about, Ayato. Not with me.

[ She will support him with anything without question!! ]

On the contrary, { at least he knows to huff out a laugh about it, to lighten how this may sound } there's no one I would worry over more.

Either way, I'll let you know when I've come to a conclusion on what to do about it all. { whichever way it is. } Until then, I may be a little busier than normal, though I'll try and ensure I can make our arranged dinners as promised.

[ "Busier than normal" does not sound very reassuring... ]

I see... Please take care of yourself, Ayato.

{ it doesn't help that 1. saving for a house and 2. working to tire himself out so he doesn't have to think as much or has more clarity thinking coincide too well. }

I will. A lot of it will likely be mind dumbing paperwork anyway. I have a lot to organise.

That does not excuse from missing meals, or bathing regularly, or drinking water...

[ >:(!! don't let her hire people to babysit you... she already made a deal with kaveh too ]

{ it's fine, ayaka! he has time to do those things now he doesn't need as much sleep. :) }

I'll I ensure I do all those things.

{ mostly. }

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jfc i'm sorry for writing an essay

no i love it

u//u

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