{ sadness isn't the only part of it. there's a burning anger under there as well, the first step to what drew angel gabriel to him. a boy at the time who was tired of seeing the suffering around him. tired of seeing people in pain, tired tired tired.

chipp says he's happier now than when he was alive--but he clearly remembers how he died. he asked the question, didn't he? guess how he died. }

Stop it. 'No big deal', of course it is. If you're going around doing this--how was it nothing?!

{ if chipp hadn't noticed, he's an emotional wildfire. the anger isn't even really aimed at chipp himself. it's at the world. at god, if he actually fucking exists.

there's a lot there he hasn't shared as well. the amount of bodies he saw as their lives were drained away over and over. his own body growing weaker as beelzebub drained him almost dry. sometimes he was there as his demon body, but there were times he wore a human face. for the amount of times people don't help each other, does it really separate them? ignorance can be as catastrophic as pulling the trigger yourself, can't it? }

What am I supposed to do with this? { he bites down on his lip } I don't want to fight you.

{ unfortunately the church teaches people that redemption is possible. that some people can change, no matter what sins they've committed. so... what is he supposed to do with this? }