… And — [ A breath of a laugh. ] It's true. Life's like that, with the ups and the downs and the whirlpools and everything in between, but sometimes it really feels like … 'wow, what is this, an anime?' [ Or a space opera. Looking at you, Wash-nii. ]
[ Korone takes a long sip of strawberry ramune. ]
Do you think it might help to try to explain it anyways? [ A genuine question. ] I've found that trying to find the words, even if it's difficult or frustrating, helps me understand my own feelings better.
Like … for example … back in Kyriakos, I was kidnapped by a witch for a couple of weeks. She wasn't scary or dangerous at all; it was kinda like an extended sleepover I hadn't consented to. She even let people visit sometimes. But, because of those visits, I found out that really awful things were happening back where everyone else was …
The queen and princess were overthrown by — honestly, calling Nyssa 'horrible' or an evil witch would be an insult to horrible people and evil witches? Blegh. [ She rolls her eyes, shakes her head. Takes another sip. ] Anyway. My team, the Cat team, who worked for the royal family, were taken over by her too … and she used magic to brainwash them into hurting everyone else. So people, lots of people, got really upset with me for breaking out of babyjail. I got yelled at, called stupid, thoughtless, reckless, told to go back where it was safe. Like it'd be better for me to sit and wait and worry and feel helpless. It was frustrating. I did some yelling too. Had a lot of Conversations. Capital C, keyword, because ... because that's what a lot of this comes down to. Conversations, communication, and balance. With yourself and the people around you.
It is important to be who you are. It is okay to not be okay, even if it sucks! I can't tell you how many times I've been mad at myself for being upset by upsetting things. I'd try to hide it, pretend I was fine ... but that only made me feel worse. Like I was trapped. [ She has to pause for a second there, gathering her thoughts. ] ... But ... actually taking the time to sit with my feelings, acknowledging them, talking with the people I trusted and asking for their help ... that made a difference. It made all the difference.
Dad's always gonna worry about me. Wash-nii, too. It's in the job description. But being open and honest about my feelings, the good and the bad, means they understand how important it is for me to be allowed to try. It means they can offer guidance and support ... and it means they can breathe a little easier, because they trust me to ask for help when I need it.
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… And — [ A breath of a laugh. ] It's true. Life's like that, with the ups and the downs and the whirlpools and everything in between, but sometimes it really feels like … 'wow, what is this, an anime?' [ Or a space opera. Looking at you, Wash-nii. ]
[ Korone takes a long sip of strawberry ramune. ]
Do you think it might help to try to explain it anyways? [ A genuine question. ] I've found that trying to find the words, even if it's difficult or frustrating, helps me understand my own feelings better.
Like … for example … back in Kyriakos, I was kidnapped by a witch for a couple of weeks. She wasn't scary or dangerous at all; it was kinda like an extended sleepover I hadn't consented to. She even let people visit sometimes. But, because of those visits, I found out that really awful things were happening back where everyone else was …
The queen and princess were overthrown by — honestly, calling Nyssa 'horrible' or an evil witch would be an insult to horrible people and evil witches? Blegh. [ She rolls her eyes, shakes her head. Takes another sip. ] Anyway. My team, the Cat team, who worked for the royal family, were taken over by her too … and she used magic to brainwash them into hurting everyone else. So people, lots of people, got really upset with me for breaking out of babyjail. I got yelled at, called stupid, thoughtless, reckless, told to go back where it was safe. Like it'd be better for me to sit and wait and worry and feel helpless. It was frustrating. I did some yelling too. Had a lot of Conversations. Capital C, keyword, because ... because that's what a lot of this comes down to. Conversations, communication, and balance. With yourself and the people around you.
It is important to be who you are. It is okay to not be okay, even if it sucks! I can't tell you how many times I've been mad at myself for being upset by upsetting things. I'd try to hide it, pretend I was fine ... but that only made me feel worse. Like I was trapped. [ She has to pause for a second there, gathering her thoughts. ] ... But ... actually taking the time to sit with my feelings, acknowledging them, talking with the people I trusted and asking for their help ... that made a difference. It made all the difference.
Dad's always gonna worry about me. Wash-nii, too. It's in the job description. But being open and honest about my feelings, the good and the bad, means they understand how important it is for me to be allowed to try. It means they can offer guidance and support ... and it means they can breathe a little easier, because they trust me to ask for help when I need it.